Thursday, 24 September 2015

Fifth Year and Expectations

OMG OMG OMG...

Hello people...
I'm back!!

well, as some of you might have known, I'm going to start my final/fifth year dental studies next week on Monday.
and Ya ALLAH, the stress, the anxiety, the nervousness the everything are just so heavy? large? unexpected??
i dont know... i dont even have a word to describe how I'm feeling right now.
I'm excited to start my final year but at the same time i'm anxious and nervous thinking of all the requirements and exams and classes and everything in between. And meeting the patients!! That is THE MOST NERVE-RACKING thing that I've ever known since I enter my clinical year.
I blame it on my almost non-existent Arabic language.
Communicating with them are so hard that I feel like crying every time I need to talk, explain, ask question, takes medical/dental history to/from them.
huh..

Enough of me rambling on something so minute.



Doakan saya serta rakan2 dapat grad dengan jayanya.

esok raya! So Selamat Hari Raya Korban buat semua muslimin dan muslimat seluruh dunia.
susah senang kita bersama.

Baik lari sebelum post ni meleret melarat kepada entah apa2.



Wadi Rum, Jordan ; 20092015
Aqabah, Jordan ; 22092013


Shiro
23092015
10.38 pm
Bayt Nescafe


Saturday, 19 September 2015

Lost of Interest and lack of Ideas.

Olla all...

Its literally almost a year since I updated anything here....
Forgive me...
but hey, its not like there's anyone reading the blog anymore... except for myself duhh....

well, sorry.... I been busy with class and fulfilling the insane requirement for my clinical year and sitting for endless exams and completing my fourth year of dental studies...give me some slack guys...

Trust me! I've been meaning to update the blog since forever! I've tons of ideas (months ago that is) and pictures in my phone that I want to post about but well.... just call me lazy and be done with it...

so here I am trying to tell you that I'm here and I'm still living and alive and everything....

and I'll try and update the blog every other month or so.... maybe I can just google for Blog Post Prompts to get me going... I've found one already that I had save somewhere... maybe later...

bye for now...

*throwback : Cliff Of Moher, Ireland ; Summer of 2014*

Shiro
10.05 pm
18/9/2015



Tuesday, 25 November 2014

of kahwin, relationship, break-off


omg...
sehari dua ni bertubi2 dapat berita orang nak kawen...
hari ni 2 org (2 ORANG!) from my close friend bagitau diaorang nk kawen...

*tgh taip kt sini ni pon, sambil2 korek rahsia from one of them.. tehee*

omgomgomg.... I'm sooooo excited for them!!! semua dah besar... 


geram je tangan ni nk whatsapp mama tanya "if i want to kawin, what would u say?" rasanya, terus rebah mama lepas ni... hahaha... 

welll.... xpe laa.... dah jodoh dorang semua dah sampai....
I'm happy for them... 

I baru ter-putus cinta.. so lupakan dulu.. study222....
hahaha..... bercinta tak pernah nak putus cinta konon nya....

thats why ak x suka berada in a relationship if the relationship doesn't end with marriage and happily ever after.. leceh... ak yg belum bercinta bagai mandi x basah makan x kenyang ni pon patah hati menderita sebab *****, kalau betul2 bercinta ak x tau laa... 

ehh ehh... cinta cinta pulak kau ehh....

bai laa... study prostho sana.. exam khamis ni kot... esk dah selasa... rabu ada klinik paedo.. balik tu sah2 pengsan... 

baibai..... 

comeback yang entah hape2....













me is single and happy


24/11/2014


Monday, 28 April 2014

Interview JPA *re-published from 12/4/2011*

okeh.. gini.. bermulalah alkisah aku pegi interview JPA ari nie merangkap ari selasa(12/4/2011)

interview aku start kul 11 pg.. tp aku kul 9.45 dh kluar umah dh... *klu nk kira, umah aku dekat laa jugak, tp pegi awl koz takut sesat* memang sesat pon.. nk kat 5 minit jugak aku n my mom duk pusing lam kawasan usm tuh nk cari kampus kesihatan.. mujur ade my dad yg agak biasa ngan kawasan tuh*koz die tgh urus projek kat situ(my dad is not a doctor oke)*.. my dad pg2 lgi kluar p usm, tnya papcik guard kat situ kampus kesihatan kat ne... n u know what... that pakcik guard ingat my dad is one of the interviewers bekali.. koz die ckp, oo encik, kami dh sediakan tempat parking tuk encik..hahahaha... *maybe koz time tuh my dad pkai kemeja segala bgai kot sampai pak cik guard tuh tertuka.. *tp best pe klu my dad yg jd one of the interviewers tuh... kan senang*..

so, kitaorg smpai lam kul 10.30 after pusing2 lam usm tuh.. sampai2 tuh g cek nama... pastu g daftar.. daftar tuh just p sign nama je.. pastu duduk laa kita kat kusi yg disediakan lam bilik menunggu tuh.. *time nie parents are not allowed to masuk dh laa.. sorang2 laa time tuh* time cek nama tuh, yeay!! aku sy grup ngan Amirah*my classmate 2010*.. n time tuggu tuh, aku dpt tau plak yg Afifah*my classmate 2005* pon satu grup ngan aku.. so lega laa sket... huahaha... aku punya interview nie kul 11.05 pg, panel 3.. tiap2 grup tuh ade laa lam 5 org.. ade jugak yg 6 org satu grup.. ade gak yg 4 org satu grup.. soo.. my grup tuh, apart from aku, Mirah n Afifah tuh, ade lg 2 org lelaki.. n grup kitaorg nie, 2 org amik dentistry the rest amik medic.. *dentistry me ngan one of the boys x maahad.. medic, Mirah, Afifah, n the other boy*

keyh... bak to the process.. lps daftar nama tuh, kitaorg kena duduk.. lps tuh die akan panggil laa sape yg dh ade tuh.. time nie kena serah file yg contain sgala benda sijil, ic n others laa yg die mintak suh bwk tu.. so lps serah file tuh, kena dudk skali lg.. tp kjap je laa.. lps tuh kena pggil skali lg.. time nie, die bg tag nama*tp xde nama laa*.. aku punye no 3 out of 5.. kira duk kat tgh laa nieh.. lps amik no tuh, the urusetia pggil suh buat line kat tepi.. then die bwk kitaorg p tunggu kat depan bilik temuduga tuh.. *kena tunggu kz time nie the interviewers xde.. p makan kot* hehehe.. so, time nieh kitaorg ade laa talking2 borak2 sket.. pastu... the urusetia td dtg, suh masuk.. so masuklak kitaorg....


masuk2 tuh, the interviewers suh dudk.. panel aku nieh, onterviewers die 2 org lelaki n 1 perempuan.. so the interviewer perempuan nie pon cakap laa.. die wish congrats koz dpt tinggi spm.. pastu die ade laa ckp sal interview nieh.. die kata, klu the interviewers tnya in english, kena answer in english.. klu in bm, lam bm laa..

so interview kitaorg dimulakan ngan perkenalan diri...*time nie in bm*.. afifah start dulu koz die no 1.. tibe time aku.. waaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~... aku byk berhenti... aku xtau nk ckp pe..*koz lam kepala aku dh siap script in english* tau2 kena in malay... habis berterabur aku nye pengenalan diri.. nerves sgt sampai nama skulah pon aku lupa nk gtau... *double waaa~~~~*

lps sudh perkenalan segala bagai tuh, kitaorg pon kena tnya pndapat sal pembelajaran antara budak kt kg n budak kt bandar.. ade beza ke?? so sorang satu tiap org kena laa ulas... aku jawab pe laa ntah... blurrr semcam je... huhuhu...

pastu the next question die tnye, what do u think of the one malaysia?? *aku xingat the exact question tp lebih kurang laa tuh* time nie, aku memang x ready giler...!!!! dh berbulan aku xbaca surat khabar..!! berita pon last time aku tgk pon last week rase!!*alasan astro rosak.. bukannya xde tv lain pon tp malas j.. i dun like laa berita2 nie.. depressing semacam je* so time nie aku main bantai je. ulang balik ape yg org lain dh cakap.. pastu maybe the interviewers kasihan tgk aku terkial2 nak jwb die pon change the subjek *time nieh aku memang MALU giler!!!!*

question tuk kali nie plak emm... jap2.. nk ingat balik...


hmmm...

hmm...



ntah laa... x ingat the exact question tp ade kaitan laa ngan kena promote diri laa.. xsilap die tnya nape kitaorg kena bg this scholarship nieh kt u guys.. ape yg u guys ade yg kitaorg blh bg nieh... *the question is in english kay*.. yg nie aku yg first jawab... aku cakap laa yg aku nie suka bio.. sjak kecik lg aku nk jd doctor... tp bile dh besar nieh, theres plenty of doctor already in the family, so i choose to change n be a dentist.. pastu aku bantai laa ckp aku nieh duk brulang g klinik gigi once a month for almost 2 years already.... time nie interviewer pompuan tu tnya, so ape yg sy tgk, ape yg sy pelajari from the visits yg almost 2 years tuh.. *yg nie aku bantai jawab jee.. i dun think i really answer ape yg die tnya tuh* bantai laa.. aku ckp laa yg aku nk specialise in orthodontic.. keje sbagai orthodontic nie, die cam puzzle, kena solve problem, kena pk solutin nk betulkan baik gigi2 patients tuh.. n it is something yg challenging n i love challenging things n love to solve mystery n puzzles.. *kan xde kaitan ngan soalan tuh* muka interviewers pon alu tgk cam blurr je ngan aku nye jawapan.. lantak laa.. huahuahua....

lastly, die tnya, *in english gak* if ur were given the scholarship, a chance to go oversea or to be a doctor, which one would excites u the most.. only one from the 3.. yg nie aku jwb, mesti being the doctor would excites me the most.. yes, not getting the scholarship n not going to oversea would make me feel really frustrtated but being a dentist is what i want, its my future.. n one of the interviewers tuh ckp, oo.. u nk semua laa nieh*ke ape ntah.. aku x ingat... something like that laaa*... aku pon senyum jee.. lantak laa the interviewers tu nk kata ape.. hahaha...

n lastly, interviewer tu pon kata, ok, thanks.. interview nie lain dri yg lain.. pengalaman lain sket.. hehehe... maybekoz abb aku byk gagap kot....

so kitaorg pon kluar, serahkan balik tag nombor td.. pastu die bg balik the file tuh then da bole balik.. *tp aku tp ade problem sket ngan aku nye file.. so kalut jugak laa*..

well.. camtu laa...


THANKS to my friends yg dtg bg semangat td... AMIERA, FATIN, AMANI, SOFIA.. love you dearies.. sorry tinggal korang td.. kalut nak urus dokumen yg die mintak tuh... *aku ngan x malunya g peluk Miera after aku kluar kawasan interview tuh* habis org g tengok.. hahaha... lantak laaa....

n

THANKS to my friends yg wish good luck n yg bertnya khabar td.. THANKS!!... SHAFINA, AIFA, AISHAH n BAZILAH.... thanks.. sorry sy lambat reply u guys punye msg... penat gile td.. dh laa smalam xleh nk tido lena.. huhuhu...

n lastly thanks to my facebookers yg wish good luck n yg doakan kejayaan sy td.. thanks!! *ceh.. facebooker tuh. hahaha*..

tp THANKS the most n the lots to my parents.. MAMA n BABA koz sanggup x pegi keje ari nie sbb nk tunggu aku kat situ.. n thanks jugak kos susah2 kena ulang alik p cari that dokumen yg die mintak.. ^^ ... *so sebagai nk balas budi, aku kena g amik adik skolah ptg td*..

so camtu laa pengalaman aku interview td.. huhuhu... malu + sedih + muka tebal.. ade sume...

Tawakkal je laa nk jadi ape lps nie.. klu ade rezeki, ALHAMDULILLAH ake dpt further study oversea.. klu xde rezeki local pon ok gak... malah i think local is kinda better lg dri oversea.. ^^ ..

so camtu laa... sorry laa readers klu ade yg korang x paham kat sini... hehe... n sorry for the grammatical mistake(S).. mesti byk kan... hahaha... k laa.. thanks...




edited a little bit of here and there..

esok ada paper biostat.. sempat lagi aku gali balik segala post kt blog ak ni, en revert to draft 3/4 of them and re-publish some of them. well, jangan esok kantoi sudah..

*Shiro*
28/4/2014
2.52 am


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